Inspirations from OUR ANCIENT MOTHER’S ALPHABET

Inspiration from a unique Tarot based with new insights on the Holy Kabbalah and original Hebrew alphabet letter meanings.
See my book OUR ANCIENT MOTHERS ALPHABET

Each Holy letter can never be fully translated into human language. Through creating your own deck their meaning will unfold and you’ll discover they resonate in your life in unexpected and enlightening ways.
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6 June 2018 or 23 Sivan 5778
90 צץ TZADDI, FISH HOOK​

ESSENCE: Tzaddi is symbolic of a fishhook. Now we can draw up nourishment from the depths and gather gifts for ourselves and also, share with others. Righteousness and goodness connect us to each other and Divine Source. We can fulfill our purpose to share our authentic selves.  Rider-Waite Tarot: The Star

Tzaddi is the number 90. It is symbolic of a fishhook. Tzaddi is the means by which we dip down into the dark Waters. We find glistening in the murky deep, in the depths of our own unconscious, that our connection to the Mother’s Wisdom waits. Our responsibility is to know that the gifts we now draw up are not only for our own use and edification, not only for our individual development. They must be shared. Tzaddi, righteousness, is a reminder that a gift is nothing unless it is shared. It was through and for sharing that the earth was created.

While Pe, 80, is the mouth, Tzaddi, 90, is the fishhook with which we lure and catch what we choose to nourish ourselves with. As the number 90, Tzaddi is a faceted reflection of Tet, 9, the Wise Serpent who led us to the knowledge of good and evil, and now demands that it be used and shared for the good of all.

page71image5074928When we can only fish with our hands, we are lucky to catch enough fish to feed ourselves. But with a fishhook enough may be caught to feed a family, providing sustenance both for ourselves, others and for the world. Sharing is so important, it is said that without deeds of giving by at least the thirty-six Tzadiks or righteous ones, the earth itself would perish. The use we make of our acquired wisdom and experience reflects our choice to nourish others or only our greed. Tzaddi is to serve and sustain others in the multi-hued joy of creation as we give back to the world the products of our rich accumulation. Eternally capable of giving and receiving, we can draw down inspiration from the Divine Source to put to practical use. We find food for body and soul, for ourselves, and the community at large. We realize our most profound and important purpose in this life, is to share ourselves. Tzaddi symbolizes the goal or end toward which all Good tends and the means to attain it as well.

Tzaddi shares symbolism with the Rider-Waite Tarot card, The Star, as it simultaneously reaches up into the heavens for inspiration, and plunges down into the depths, in order to obtain and share fruits of Divine revelation.

REVERSED:

When reversed Tzaddi is a warning against hoarding. We need to ask ourselves, “Am I being miserly?”

“What and how much do I need to feel secure?”
“What is holding me back from sharing?”
“What am I afraid of losing?”
If we feed our emotional projections such as fear, envy, jealousy and prejudice, these projections interfere with our ability to give of our self. It may also be we undervalue our own gifts because we are comparing them to others and need to recognize its uniqueness. We need to remind ourselves that nevertheless this is what we are here for. If we don’t hold back but give of our authentic selves with a full heart, it is enough.

It may also be reversed because we lack inspiration. In that case we might ask ourselves, “What can I do to feel creative and inspired?”

“What action will help me stimulate and awaken my inspiration?”

The Tzaddi card is upside down because we need to be reminded that in the bounty of the Divine giving and receiving, there is no lack and therefore no necessity for fear.

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May 5 2018 or 22 Sivan 5778
200    ר     RESH     Head      Face      Countenance

Essence: Symbolic of a head Resh is the new day dawning, the sun rising and the New Year. It is the Holy One, The Eternal Divine, Mother/Father wholeness. Our hearts rejoice, life renewed. Now in our souls darkness and light dance, and we can know our Self, whole–Holy.  Rider-Waite Tarot: The Sun

Resh, number 200, signifies the countenance, face or head. Resh is the face of the Jewish New Year, Rosh Hashanah.  As the head of the year it represents both opportunity and fulfillment. At the beginning, joyous union is created, one that may, like the Song of Songs, exist on all levels of our being. It may represent the psychic or spiritual union within our Self, or describe the union of beloveds, where two souls are joined, becoming one Love.

Feminine and Masculine, God and Shekinah, in Resh long to be joined together in us. It is the Eternal joined with Their creation, calling out Kadosh, Wholly-ness.“Oh my dove that art in the clefts of the rock, in the secret places of the stars, let me see thy countenance, let me hear thy voice; for sweet is thy voice and thy countenance is comely.” (Solomon’s Song, 2:14)

While Bet, 2 , represents a house or womb holding the unborn son, and Kaf, 20, is the hand of the masculine surrounding the small Feminine Yod, Resh, 200, is the new day, the New Year dawning. It is the Feminine and Masculine mutual longing and desire that have brought the two together as equals, as One.

 Quf, 100, is the dark moon, the darkest hour. The light and promise of  Resh, 200, returns once more to bless the earth. Resh and Quf are so related that they can substitute for each other in a reading of a sacred text or oracle deck, depending on context and surrounding letters as words are created.

When Resh, the New Year begins, the gates of heaven open for us to awaken our attention. Like the originally created male and female—Adam, from the first Eden story in Genesis—we are invited to return and live in union with the Eternal in the Eden, here and now, this Earth. 

On the Jewish New Year we are offered the opportunity to face ourselves without pretense, to know that we are good and evil, wonderful and hateful. Resh is the renewal of all things—the renewal of the creation. Through the movement of our renewed heart, the compassion for the ugly and beautiful in ourselves, we become capable of compassion for others and thus deserving of the Divine Compassion. We can create ourselves anew, recreate our inner harmony and participate in the joy of the new day. Now dancer and dance, singer and song are one and even evil is known to be but the other side of the face of Good. The serpent in Eden was created as a teacher, to offer the freedom of choice. It is through our choices that we learn and grow.

When love is compelled or coerced, it isn’t love. Love only exists when it is freely chosen. The Eternal One’s gifts of the Serpent and our expulsion from Eden (our infant dependence) are given so that we can choose Love. Without our love and the love of Their creation, the Holy One is incomplete. Without the Holy One’s love, we are incomplete. But when two love, God is there.

Resh is similar in meaning to the Rider-Waite Tarotcard The Sun. Its image of an Eden where the opposites are united is the two lovers entwined. Wholeness is formed. 

REVERSED: When the Resh is reversed, it is a sign that we are attempting to coerce or distort ourselves to gain love. There is danger we are living in denial. When we deceive ourselves, deny our true face, we deny our wholeness. This reversal bids us to know and accept our shadow and our light, and truly love ourselves. It warns us that if we are in hiding, how can we hope for or trust anyone else’s love for us? Even if it feels wonderful when the object of our love puts us on a pedestal, the love they are offering cannot be real since it is based on an illusion. It is a one-sided reflection, rather than a full view of who we really are. The Resh overturned may also indicate we have idealized and not seen the true face of another. Both can lead us into misfortune.

Resh over turned may indicate that although not yet healed, this reversal serves to remind us we are in the process of healing and waking to our wholeness.

Resh reversed may also signify haughtiness or false pride. We are reminded that when we close the gates of our heart, we shut ourselves out.

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4 May 2018 or 21 Sivan 5778
KETAR,  ACE OF WHEELS

ESSENCE: The material world where inspiration, emotion and thought unite, becoming the world of manifestation. We give concrete form to the dreams our energy creates. As the Wheel comes to earth, it may carry the arrival of a surprise, a gift or a vital message.

The image of the Ketar (Ace) of Wheels is of a wheel turning as it descends to earth. It looks like a wheel in my more formal deck. In my more informal, playful deck the wheel is a pizza. Both symbolize coming to earth, grounding our energy in order to create and nurture our development as it takes concrete form. Furthermore, the image of a pizza is used to express the delicious juiciness when all three elements unite in the material world. In Wheels the Primary Three Mothers, Shin (fire)Mem (Water) and Aleph (Air), represented in the Minor Arcana as the suits of Wands, Cups and Swords, join together, giving birth to the material world. In the Ketar of Wheels we give in to the impulse to manifest and enter the realm of the earth.

The fruits of our spiritual, emotional and mental efforts now come to ground. They bring with them the potential for prosperity, money, a new job, property, the first manifestation of any new-born creation, even a baby. What is wished for can now be granted. For better or worse, our prayers are answered. Labor and rest, growth and action, our potential to shape and be shaped is our capacity for building and giving concrete form to our dreams. We may make a name for ourselves, make our mark on the world, create a legacy.

If supported by the surrounding cards, the Ketar of Wheels may also indicate pennies from Heaven, an arrival, a happy surprise and the reception of a legacy, an unexpected gift.

REVERSED:  When reversed, the Ketar of Wheels is a warning to be careful of what we ask for. It reminds us that things are not always what they appear to be. Some wishes, when granted, make the wisher wish they had never wished for it in the first place. Here is a reminder that every wish granted, everything we create, carries with it new responsibilities and commitments and demands more energy from us. As such, we need to prepare for the change, challenge and growth it brings. Here is a wake up call. If we are not grounded, this reversal, is reminding us we must now take the time to become grounded. If blessings come when we are not ready, the adjustment required may be more challenging, like having a child before we are ready and mature enough to take on the responsibility and challenge of our life focus changing from being about ourselves to the care for another.

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3 June 2018 or 20 Sivan 5778
90 צץ TZADDI, FISH HOOK​

ESSENCE: Tzaddi is symbolic of a fishhook. Now we can draw up nourishment from the depths and gather gifts for ourselves and also, share with others. Righteousness and goodness connect us to each other and Divine Source. We can fulfill our purpose to share our authentic selves.  Rider-Waite Tarot: The Star

Tzaddi is the number 90. It is symbolic of a fishhook. Tzaddi is the means by which we dip down into the dark Waters. We find glistening in the murky deep, in the depths of our own unconscious, that our connection to the Mother’s Wisdom waits. Our responsibility is to know that the gifts we now draw up are not only for our own use and edification, not only for our individual development. They must be shared. Tzaddi, righteousness, is a reminder that a gift is nothing unless it is shared. It was through and for sharing that the earth was created.

While Pe, 80, is the mouth, Tzaddi, 90, is the fishhook with which we lure and catch what we choose to nourish ourselves with. As the number 90, Tzaddi is a faceted reflection of Tet, 9, the Wise Serpent who led us to the knowledge of good and evil, and now demands that it be used and shared for the good of all.

page71image5074928When we can only fish with our hands, we are lucky to catch enough fish to feed ourselves. But with a fishhook enough may be caught to feed a family, providing sustenance both for ourselves, others and for the world. Sharing is so important, it is said that without deeds of giving by at least the thirty-six Tzadiks or righteous ones, the earth itself would perish. The use we make of our acquired wisdom and experience reflects our choice to nourish others or only our greed. Tzaddi is to serve and sustain others in the multi-hued joy of creation as we give back to the world the products of our rich accumulation. Eternally capable of giving and receiving, we can draw down inspiration from the Divine Source to put to practical use. We find food for body and soul, for ourselves, and the community at large. We realize our most profound and important purpose in this life, is to share ourselves. Tzaddi symbolizes the goal or end toward which all Good tends and the means to attain it as well.

Tzaddi shares symbolism with the Rider-Waite Tarot card, The Star, as it simultaneously reaches up into the heavens for inspiration, and plunges down into the depths, in order to obtain and share fruits of Divine revelation.

REVERSED:

When reversed Tzaddi is a warning against hoarding. We need to ask ourselves, “Am I being miserly?”

“What and how much do I need to feel secure?”
“What is holding me back from sharing?”
“What am I afraid of losing?”
If we feed our emotional projections such as fear, envy, jealousy and prejudice, these projections interfere with our ability to give of our self. It may also be we undervalue our own gifts because we are comparing them to others and need to recognize its uniqueness. We need to remind ourselves that nevertheless this is what we are here for. If we don’t hold back but give of our authentic selves with a full heart, it is enough.

It may also be reversed because we lack inspiration. In that case we might ask ourselves, “What can I do to feel creative and inspired?”

“What action will help me stimulate and awaken my inspiration?”

The Tzaddi card is upside down because we need to be reminded that in the bounty of the Divine giving and receiving, there is no lack and therefore no necessity for fear.

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2 May 2018 or 19 Sivan 5778
2 HOKHMAH OF SWORDS

ESSENCE: Clearly seeing both sides of an issue. We weigh options and evaluate information. If required, we can fairly decide between opposing viewpoints or negotiate a middle way. This confers ability to discuss, communicate dispassionately, and prioritize. Gain or retain objectivity.

The Hokhmah (two) of Swords implies reasoning ability, comprehension and mechanical or intellectual brilliance, the capacity to see all sides of an issue. We have a need and natural ability to balance and weigh information. We can step outside ourselves to gain greater objectivity even if doing so may threaten our ego or self-interests. Meticulousness in this regard results in our clear evaluations of situations. This provides us with an unprejudiced and clear way of seeing and evaluating information, people and even our own behavior. We are open to constructive criticism and so are able to grow and make important changes in our life and relationships.

Often the Two of Swords expresses a need for self-expression through writing or discussion. It also indicates the use of these skills for settling conflicts, either within our own mind or in our relationships. There is increased understanding of opposing views, and an increased ability to negotiate, prioritize, and compromise. We can communicate our own views and also express an accurate comprehension of our opposition’s views. This is a good time to settle a debate or resolve even a deep antagonism, creating a truce, or ending a conflict.

The Hokhmah of Swords may also suggest that since we are of two minds concerning a given matter it will be wise to take more time for evaluating or gathering the necessary information before making a decision.

REVERSED: When the Hokhmah of Swords is reversed, we are being warned this is not the time for indecision. If we wait too long, all may be lost.

This may also appear to remind us that it’s important to remain flexible, and alert to a change in the wind. It is much easier to rescue our lawn furniture before the hurricane strikes than to have to carry it in against the gale.

Contrary Two of Swords can also indicate that a matter or truce we thought had been settled may be short-lived or is in danger of being subjected to unexpected changes. It may be cautioning us to wait for more information before concluding a matter.

 

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1 May 2018 or 18 Sivan 5778
4  HESED OF WHEELS

ESSENCE: Expansive good fortune. Our way is open and effortless. Everything we do comes out right and furthers our ambitions. Nevertheless in fat times moderation is necessary so as not to be caught short in the lean times which may follow.

The Hesed(four) of Wheels is like a gift from the universe. There is great expansion in the material world. Money and good fortune pour in. That for which we have been striving seems to come with ease and grace. We seem to have the Midas-Touch. In this time of great abundance we are suddenly able to attain the object of our desires.

Enjoy the feeling of expansive abundance and freedom from want, while still remembering to set a portion aside, in terms of material wealth and physical and emotional energy, so that when reversals come we have not depleted all our stores.

In spite of the appearance of total success, the Hesed reminds us that now,while we are living in abundance, we must use this prosperous time to be grateful, remembering that our good fortune is not a reward, is not only from our own doing, and to prepare for the lean times which may well follow. In anticipation of a reversal, it is essential to be moderate in our expenditures and to avoid wasting our time, energy or resources. If we are careful to gather and store nourishment before the famine comes, we will be protected and not taken unaware.

As part of our preparations we gather the able helpers we will need, assemble the colleagues and people who are trustworthy, capable and who hold the same values as we do. The work ahead will require collaboration, flexibility and possibly a group effort. It is also important to remain generous to our associates. If we are circumspect, we will make it through the lean time ahead and emerge from it with even greater prosperity.

REVERSED: If the Hesed is reversed, we are in danger of throwing ourselves away or wasting ourresources. We need to consider whether we are allying ourselves with unworthy people or casting pearls before swine.

Conversely, we may be not listening to good advice because of the source from which it comes. It is important now to re-examine, and possibly value more highly, the advice we receive even if it comes from an unlikely source.

 

 

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31 May 2018 or 17 Sivan 5778
90 צץ TZADDI, FISH HOOK​

ESSENCE: Tzaddi is symbolic of a fishhook. Now we can draw up nourishment from the depths and gather gifts for ourselves and also, share with others. Righteousness and goodness connect us to each other and Divine Source. We can fulfill our purpose to share our authentic selves.  Rider-Waite Tarot: The Star

Tzaddi is the number 90. It is symbolic of a fishhook. Tzaddi is the means by which we dip down into the dark Waters. We find glistening in the murky deep, in the depths of our own unconscious, that our connection to the Mother’s Wisdom waits. Our responsibility is to know that the gifts we now draw up are not only for our own use and edification, not only for our individual development. They must be shared. Tzaddi, righteousness, is a reminder that a gift is nothing unless it is shared. It was through and for sharing that the earth was created.

While Pe, 80, is the mouth, Tzaddi, 90, is the fishhook with which we lure and catch what we choose to nourish ourselves with. As the number 90, Tzaddi is a faceted reflection of Tet, 9, the Wise Serpent who led us to the knowledge of good and evil, and now demands that it be used and shared for the good of all.

page71image5074928When we can only fish with our hands, we are lucky to catch enough fish to feed ourselves. But with a fishhook enough may be caught to feed a family, providing sustenance both for ourselves, others and for the world. Sharing is so important, it is said that without deeds of giving by at least the thirty-six Tzadiks or righteous ones, the earth itself would perish. The use we make of our acquired wisdom and experience reflects our choice to nourish others or only our greed. Tzaddi is to serve and sustain others in the multi-hued joy of creation as we give back to the world the products of our rich accumulation. Eternally capable of giving and receiving, we can draw down inspiration from the Divine Source to put to practical use. We find food for body and soul, for ourselves, and the community at large. We realize our most profound and important purpose in this life, is to share ourselves. Tzaddi symbolizes the goal or end toward which all Good tends and the means to attain it as well.

Tzaddi shares symbolism with the Rider-Waite Tarot card, The Star, as it simultaneously reaches up into the heavens for inspiration, and plunges down into the depths, in order to obtain and share fruits of Divine revelation.

REVERSED:

When reversed Tzaddi is a warning against hoarding. We need to ask ourselves, “Am I being miserly?”

“What and how much do I need to feel secure?”
“What is holding me back from sharing?”
“What am I afraid of losing?”
If we feed our emotional projections such as fear, envy, jealousy and prejudice, these projections interfere with our ability to give of our self. It may also be we undervalue our own gifts because we are comparing them to others and need to recognize its uniqueness. We need to remind ourselves that nevertheless this is what we are here for. If we don’t hold back but give of our authentic selves with a full heart, it is enough.

It may also be reversed because we lack inspiration. In that case we might ask ourselves, “What can I do to feel creative and inspired?”

“What action will help me stimulate and awaken my inspiration?”

The Tzaddi card is upside down because we need to be reminded that in the bounty of the Divine giving and receiving, there is no lack and therefore no necessity for fear.

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30 May 2018 or 16 Sivan 5778
4 ד דּ DALET, DOOR, BIRTH-CANAL or PASSAGE

ESSENCE: Dalet is a door or birth-passage. Allowing our beginner-selves to be pressed and shaped, we trust and refuse to let fear block us from living fully. We bind ourselves to the One Holiness, know our true calling and fulfill our purpose. Rider-Waite Tarot:Empress

Dalet is the number 4, from a symbol meaning door also womb and especially birth canal.  Dalet is also the gift on the other side of the door.  

Because the seed cannot rest forever in Bet, the womb of the Eternal One, Dalet is the door through which all must pass to be born into individual life.

Dalet is the fear and pain of the one giving birth and of the one being born. So, although suffering, we often cling to the known rather than go through the door. We may be poor, risking destruction, or on the verge of dying and yet it is our door to wisdom, understanding and freedom. Dalet represents an opening to a new life, either manifesting physically, spiritually or psychologically. Because doors even the most familiar hold the potential of something unexpected, good or ill on the other side, Dalet is not easy.  It requires courage.  Dalet is a dark unpredictable yearning and a green passage. All is lost, all wasted if we refuse to trust and allow fear to bind and hold us back from living fully as we travel our brief passage from birth to death.  

When we move through the door into a new unknown, Dalet speaks of the required work, bravery, hope and trust we must have. It speaks of our willingness or resistance, to allow ourselves to be pressed and shaped. Because Dalet is the eternally in-drawing and out-pouring womb and birth canal, we find ourselves to be simultaneously the nurturer or the newborn sprout, the beginner, or all three. For it is the door that opens to our true calling.

Dalet is also the door our words open, the choice we make to speak or remain silent. It is the road into our center or away from it. It is the door through which we bind ourselves to the One Holiness until every moment is infused with trust; to know our connection as we realize and fulfill our purpose.

The card Dalet shares some qualities with the Rider-Waite Tarot Empress archetype since all are equal in the complete impartiality of her womb. She can represent indiscriminate production and the primordial capacity for nurturance and acceptance of all of creation. Like the Empress card it may be pointing to a time of blossoming into new beginnings, new understanding and awareness.                                                                                                           

REVERSED:  The Dalet reversed may speak of fear as being a stumbling block to growth.  An important question to explore is, “What am I afraid of?  What might be holding me back from an essential growth experience?”

It may also may be we are too impatient with the time needed for the birth process. The seeming state of limbo, the insecurity of being neither in the womb, nor yet in the world reminds us that this too isa place of being, this too is Holy ground.  When we attempt to resist or hurry, the transition or transformation only becomes more difficult. Instead use this time to rest, to allow and to trust.

Or, it might indicate the door to poverty or suffering.  Even so, we may choose to view our misfortune, as a challenge and invitation.

In either case our soul calls on us to remember that even in the depths of despair, we are not abandoned. “Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I shall fear no evil for Thou art with me…. (Psalms 23:4).  We are not alone.                            

                                               

 

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29 May 2018 or 15 Sivan 5778
 6 TIFERET OF WANDS

ESSENCE: Equilibrium is attained. Our creative work and personal life flows effortlessly. Even so we must stay awake to unforeseen pitfalls that may undermine our project. There’s a necessity for vigilance and attention to detail as the time of transition nears completion.  

The Tiferet (six) of Wands refers to a time when the transition from the old to the new is nearing completion. The forces that usually tended in different directions are harmonized. It is a time of perfect equilibrium.  In principle, everything is where it belongs and proceeds as if without effort.  It can be tempting to complacently drift along and let things take their course. Just as in the Genesis story when following the creation of the world the serpent appears, with its potential for enlightening, or throwing all into chaos or death, it is most important to remain awake and vigilant even to seemingly insignificant details.

Hence, the Tiferet of Wands refers to a time of completion, enjoyment, harmonious relationships.  Simultaneously, it is a time for remaining alert.  With self-awareness the seemingly insignificant evil,will not go unnoticed.  We must avoid becoming complacent, conditioned, or habitual. The times now require us to remain awake and vigilant, regarding our internal processes even as the external aspects of our life appear to have reached a state of harmony. We must remain humble, orderly, grounded, responsible, awake and watchful. Resist the temptation to impulsivity, carelessness or simply drifting along.

REVERSED: When reversed, the meaning of the Tiferet of Wands is essentially the same, but we are  more vulnerable to the dangers of complacency. Habitual ways of thinking and being, also our addiction to comforts are symptomatic of mental stagnation and its resulting dangers.

This reversal invites us to question our motives and ask, “Is my work here really as good as it can be?”

“Am I too anxious to be finished?” 

“What might I be forgetting or leaving out?  Is any step in my process incomplete?”

 

 

 

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28 May 2018 or 14 Sivan 5778
90 צץ TZADDI, FISH HOOK​

ESSENCE: Tzaddi is symbolic of a fishhook. Now we can draw up nourishment from the depths and gather gifts for ourselves and also, share with others. Righteousness and goodness connect us to each other and Divine Source. We can fulfill our purpose to share our authentic selves.  Rider-Waite Tarot: The Star

Tzaddi is the number 90. It is symbolic of a fishhook. Tzaddi is the means by which we dip down into the dark Waters. We find glistening in the murky deep, in the depths of our own unconscious, that our connection to the Mother’s Wisdom waits. Our responsibility is to know that the gifts we now draw up are not only for our own use and edification, not only for our individual development. They must be shared. Tzaddi, righteousness, is a reminder that a gift is nothing unless it is shared. It was through and for sharing that the earth was created.

While Pe, 80, is the mouth, Tzaddi, 90, is the fishhook with which we lure and catch what we choose to nourish ourselves with. As the number 90, Tzaddi is a faceted reflection of Tet, 9, the Wise Serpent who led us to the knowledge of good and evil, and now demands that it be used and shared for the good of all.

page71image5074928When we can only fish with our hands, we are lucky to catch enough fish to feed ourselves. But with a fishhook enough may be caught to feed a family, providing sustenance both for ourselves, others and for the world. Sharing is so important, it is said that without deeds of giving by at least the thirty-six Tzadiks or righteous ones, the earth itself would perish. The use we make of our acquired wisdom and experience reflects our choice to nourish others or only our greed. Tzaddi is to serve and sustain others in the multi-hued joy of creation as we give back to the world the products of our rich accumulation. Eternally capable of giving and receiving, we can draw down inspiration from the Divine Source to put to practical use. We find food for body and soul, for ourselves, and the community at large. We realize our most profound and important purpose in this life, is to share ourselves. Tzaddi symbolizes the goal or end toward which all Good tends and the means to attain it as well.

Tzaddi shares symbolism with the Rider-Waite Tarot card, The Star, as it simultaneously reaches up into the heavens for inspiration, and plunges down into the depths, in order to obtain and share fruits of Divine revelation.

REVERSED:

When reversed Tzaddi is a warning against hoarding. We need to ask ourselves, “Am I being miserly?”

“What and how much do I need to feel secure?”
“What is holding me back from sharing?”
“What am I afraid of losing?”
If we feed our emotional projections such as fear, envy, jealousy and prejudice, these projections interfere with our ability to give of our self. It may also be we undervalue our own gifts because we are comparing them to others and need to recognize its uniqueness. We need to remind ourselves that nevertheless this is what we are here for. If we don’t hold back but give of our authentic selves with a full heart, it is enough.

It may also be reversed because we lack inspiration. In that case we might ask ourselves, “What can I do to feel creative and inspired?”

“What action will help me stimulate and awaken my inspiration?”

The Tzaddi card is upside down because we need to be reminded that in the bounty of the Divine giving and receiving, there is no lack and therefore no necessity for fear.

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May 27 2018 or 13 Sivan 5778
80 פף PE, MOUTH, FRONT OF THE FACE

           ESSENCE: Pe  symbolizes a front of the face, especially the mouth. It expresses a point of view, a judgment, teaches or offers a blessing. Our words can build rigid towers of ideas, curse, inform, share wisdom or offer healing. The mouth Pereminds us that whatever we feed on, literally or symbolically, becomes us. Rider-Waite Tarot:Tower

Pe is the number 80. It is symbolic of the front of the face  and specifically the mouth. Pe has two forms. The first appears at the beginning and middle of a word. The second form is at the end.

While Ayin, 70, is the eye that forms our point of view, Pe, 80, is the mouth.  What we tell ourselves, and the words we speak.  It is how we express our perception of reality, our truth and values.  In Chet, the number 8, we have chosen our field of responsibility. We have given our pledge.  Pe, the number 80, is the mouth that makes that pledge, that vow.

Pe speaks of our ability to learn by word of mouth and our awareness of what we choose to nourish in ourselves, and others.  By so doing we effect not only our values and judgments, but can influence others, as well.  Pe is the use to which our mouth is put.  It is to debate, argue, philosophize, judge, clarify and to explain.  With our mouth we can express the benediction of the heart or, overwhelmed with awe, remain speechless before beauty. Thus, the mouth is the beginning and end of words, that which we can describe or define and that which is beyond our power of speech.   Pereminds us that clear, communication is important to any relationship, and to be mindful of what is taken in or goes out from our mouth.  If we nourish and express our sense of connection to the whole and offer gratitude for our place, we open ourselves to goodness.  If we are greedy, unsatisfied and complaining, nothing good can come, for even if it did, we’d never recognize it.  We are called upon to strive to tell ourselves the truth.  And, also be aware of what, how and if, we choose to communicate it.

The Pe card shares some meanings with the Rider-Waite Tarotcard the Tower.  For it is the words we use that give form to our ideas and beliefs.  Thoughts formed by the words we use to describe our feelings and experiences, create the towers of our reality.  These structures are useful when they help us understand our world and protect us from chaos.  Nevertheless, we must always remain flexible, leaving room to attend to voices other than our own, so our reality can expand to be nourished by new ideas and experiences.

REVERSED: Pe reversed is more like the traditional Tower card.  Our towering ideas and ideals rigidly held, have imprisoned us in a tower built from pride, fear and egocentricity.  We are locked in our own tower of babble until the lightening of life knocks it down.  When the perceived invulnerability of our towers shatter or are split open by some cataclysmic, unanticipated event, we are forced to an awareness of our vulnerability.  It produces the change necessary for our deliverance. 

In reversal, Pe may be informing us that we have been afraid to take individual responsibility we have feared the risk of speaking out for ourselves.  We have not spoken out against injustice, which offends our ethics and morality. 

We are being warned to resist the temptation to exaggerate or lie, to be a troublemaker, to babble and to destroy.  

ThePe upside down reminds us to watch our words be conscious of the possible ramifications of what we say. Even if we do not intend harm, our words taken the wrong way can cause havoc. Words passing vicious judgments on others and spreading gossip, create division or destruction.  It can be a warning that we are the subject of such gossip.  We need to be wary of other’s words, which spread falsehoods and create philosophies that can lead us to destruction.  We need to be careful that we understand what is truly meant. Also we need to be mindful that by our words we are not creating misunderstandings. 

Only if Pe is reversed may the lesson, growth and illumination come in the form of physical or spiritual cataclysm.  The shattering of illusions, the false or no longer useful tower we have built, however painful, can bring new opportunities and nourishment for our renewal. We may find that the shattering of our tower can be a liberating experience. It may actually be a great gift.  From the destruction of our tower we learn that we live most fully when we know ourselves to be part of a greater whole.

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May 26 2018 or 12 Sivan 5778
9 ט TET, SERPENT, KARMA​

ESSENCE: Tet, a serpent symbolizes the Great Mother. The Wise Preserving Force and Lawmaker, offers us knowledge and loss of innocence, then holds us responsible for our choices.  Our karmic teacher invites us to know our Holiness.  Rider-Waite Tarot:Justice

Tetis the number 9, Serpent, Karma the Great Mother forming a shelter or roof with her body.  She holds us in her dark lap and teaches us her wisdom. She protects and covers us over and rocks us to sleep.  At the navel, the center, where the secrets of life are hidden, she is the shield and natural preserving force, the energy that breathes and lifts us as we breathe.

While Chet is a fence around a field, Tet is the serpent protecting and surrounding the fence. Chet is a field or garden enclosed and Tet is the serpent of wisdom curled around the tree at its center.  As the serpent in the garden who first inspired us with the knowledge of good and evil, she now holds us responsible for that which we have chosen to make our own. Tet is the truth we must face. Linked to wisdom and to prophetic dreams where the Divine reveals itself, She opens our mind to knowledge and our destiny. She is the lawmaker and counselor, the place deep in our center where we know whether our choices are right or wrong, healthy or destructive. When we are sheltered and immersed in goodness she is the hidden treasure, the wholeness that is in our own depths, a gift to be discovered. It is the miracle by which we live.

Now made pure, we are given the power and the intelligence to fly with the highest Self. The serpent that tempted us with the knowledge of good and evil forces us to grow up. We have what is needed for a safe journey: a foundation and the loss of innocence, for Tet is good. “I would lead thee, and bring thee into my mother’s house who would instruct me…”(Solomon’s Song,8:2).

Tet is related to the Tarot card Justice. Here, at the center of the Garden, in the protection of her lap, we are taught and guided by the results of our choices. Tet is the natural consequences by which we learn; she is the collector of karmic debts, the severe but still-loving mother.

REVERSED: When Tet is reversed, it refers to those things we do that separate ourselves from our highest good or wholeness. There is too much concern with self-protection. We may be behaving in selfish and irresponsible egocentric ways. We have grown too fond of the dark lap, sleeping curled and covered, even when She would have uswake up.

It is time to awaken and realize that it is only in the hiding, the lack of trust in our relationships, the secrets we keep from ourselves, and those we profess to love, that separate us from the Garden.

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25 May 2018 or 11 Sivan 5778
6 TIFERET OF CUPS

ESSENCE: Personal growth within the relationship.  We learn to balance our absorption in and nurturing of a relationship and our need to withdraw.  Still committed to the relationship we take ourselves back to nurture our own needs, desires and interests as well.

The Tiferet(six) of Cups represents compassion, empathy, true understanding. The soul-mates are joined, but in a vital relationship where both the dark and light sides of the partners are revealed to each other and themselves.        

Though it is not without conflict, it is a dance where the partners have their differences and yet accept themselves and each other. Snow White turns out to be a lousy housekeeper without her retinue of dwarves.  Prince Charming never picks up his clothes or puts the toilet seat down after he pees.  She likes parties and travel while he needs quiet and time to be alone. Yet their love allows each to fully grow and be themselves.  They share a love deeper than each other’s differences and flaws.

The Tiferet of Cups combines passion for each other and self-love. Communication, and compassion are joined.  Both parties are committed and dedicated to keeping the relationship true, vital and alive.  Their recognition and respect for their differences and different needs, increases their love and enriches them both.

The Tiferetof Cups represents a time when we may look at our mutual creation that is a relationship and appreciate its goodness.

This card refers to a way of being in all our relationships. The relationship with a beloved is only used as an example, since the Tiferet of Cups can refer to any or all of our important relationships. True love always involves true knowing and acceptance of the other. Here we recognize the necessity of balancing the needs and desires of the other and the relationship, with our own needs and desires. In an individual reading the Tiferet of Cups may therefore actually refer to the relationship between parent and child, between friends, or even a business partnership. Ultimately, Tiferetof Cups refers the way we should relate to all we encounter, even the stranger, as we create a more loving world.

REVERSED:  When the Tiferetof Cups is reversed, it is a reminder that life can always cause even the most secure and established relationships to change course. It addresses the importance of staying current in our awareness of each other. Tiferetreversed may be trying to warn us against becoming complacent. 

            We need to ask ourselves “Am I truly seeing my partner?”

            “Am I really willing to listen to what they are trying to communicate?”

            ” Am I willing ask a hard question?”

            “Can I speak my truth?”

            Conflict is important for growth.  If we only see our own distorted projection of our partner, even if it’s an attractive picture, we put ourselves, and our relationship in danger. All that can help is vigilance so that we can see through the projections to the reality.                                                

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May 24 2018 or 10 Sivan 5778
9 ט TET, SERPENT, KARMA

ESSENCE: Tet, a serpent symbolizes the Great Mother. The Wise Preserving Force and Lawmaker, offers us knowledge and loss of innocence, then holds us responsible for our choices.  Our karmic teacher invites us to know our Holiness.  Rider-Waite Tarot:Justice

Tetis the number 9, Serpent, Karma the Great Mother forming a shelter or roof with her body.  She holds us in her dark lap and teaches us her wisdom. She protects and covers us over and rocks us to sleep.  At the navel, the center, where the secrets of life are hidden, she is the shield and natural preserving force, the energy that breathes and lifts us as we breathe.

While Chet is a fence around a field, Tet is the serpent protecting and surrounding the fence. Chet is a field or garden enclosed and Tet is the serpent of wisdom curled around the tree at its center.  As the serpent in the garden who first inspired us with the knowledge of good and evil, she now holds us responsible for that which we have chosen to make our own. Tet is the truth we must face. Linked to wisdom and to prophetic dreams where the Divine reveals itself, She opens our mind to knowledge and our destiny. She is the lawmaker and counselor, the place deep in our center where we know whether our choices are right or wrong, healthy or destructive. When we are sheltered and immersed in goodness she is the hidden treasure, the wholeness that is in our own depths, a gift to be discovered. It is the miracle by which we live.

Now made pure, we are given the power and the intelligence to fly with the highest Self. The serpent that tempted us with the knowledge of good and evil forces us to grow up. We have what is needed for a safe journey: a foundation and the loss of innocence, for Tetis good. “I would lead thee, and bring thee into my mother’s house who would instruct me…”(Solomon’s Song,8:2).

Tet is related to the Tarot card Justice. Here, at the center of the Garden, in the protection of her lap, we are taught and guided by the results of our choices. Tetis the natural consequences by which we learn; she is the collector of karmic debts, the severe but still-loving mother.

REVERSED: When Tet is reversed, it refers to those things we do that separate ourselves from our highest good or wholeness. There is too much concern with self-protection. We may be behaving in selfish and irresponsible egocentric ways. We have grown too fond of the dark lap, sleeping curled and covered, even when She would have uswake up.

It is time to awaken and realize that it is only in the hiding, the lack of trust in our relationships, the secrets we keep from ourselves, and those we profess to love, that separate us from the Garden.

 

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23 May 2018 or 9 Sivan 5778
90 צץ TZADDI, FISH HOOK

ESSENCE: Tzaddi is symbolic of a fishhook. Now we can draw up nourishment from the depths and gather gifts for ourselves and also, share with others. Righteousness and goodness connect us to each other and Divine Source. We can fulfill our purpose to share our authentic selves.  Rider-Waite Tarot: The Star

Tzaddi is the number 90. It is symbolic of a fishhook. Tzaddi is the means by which we dip down into the dark Waters. We find glistening in the murky deep, in the depths of our own unconscious, that our connection to the Mother’s Wisdom waits. Our responsibility is to know that the gifts we now draw up are not only for our own use and edification, not only for our individual development. They must be shared. Tzaddi, righteousness, is a reminder that a gift is nothing unless it is shared. It was through and for sharing that the earth was created.

While Pe, 80, is the mouth, Tzaddi, 90, is the fishhook with which we lure and catch what we choose to nourish ourselves with. As the number 90, Tzaddi is a faceted reflection of Tet, 9, the Wise Serpent who led us to the knowledge of good and evil, and now demands that it be used and shared for the good of all.

page71image5074928When we can only fish with our hands, we are lucky to catch enough fish to feed ourselves. But with a fishhook enough may be caught to feed a family, providing sustenance both for ourselves, others and for the world. Sharing is so important, it is said that without deeds of giving by at least the thirty-six Tzadiks or righteous ones, the earth itself would perish. The use we make of our acquired wisdom and experience reflects our choice to nourish others or only our greed. Tzaddi is to serve and sustain others in the multi-hued joy of creation as we give back to the world the products of our rich accumulation. Eternally capable of giving and receiving, we can draw down inspiration from the Divine Source to put to practical use. We find food for body and soul, for ourselves, and the community at large. We realize our most profound and important purpose in this life, is to share ourselves. Tzaddi symbolizes the goal or end toward which all Good tends and the means to attain it as well.

Tzaddi shares symbolism with the Rider-Waite Tarot card, The Star, as it simultaneously reaches up into the heavens for inspiration, and plunges down into the depths, in order to obtain and share fruits of Divine revelation.

REVERSED:

When reversed Tzaddi is a warning against hoarding. We need to ask ourselves, “Am I being miserly?”

“What and how much do I need to feel secure?”
“What is holding me back from sharing?”
“What am I afraid of losing?”
If we feed our emotional projections such as fear, envy, jealousy and prejudice, these projections interfere with our ability to give of our self. It may also be we undervalue our own gifts because we are comparing them to others and need to recognize its uniqueness. We need to remind ourselves that nevertheless this is what we are here for. If we don’t hold back but give of our authentic selves with a full heart, it is enough.

It may also be reversed because we lack inspiration. In that case we might ask ourselves, “What can I do to feel creative and inspired?”

“What action will help me stimulate and awaken my inspiration?”

The Tzaddi card is upside down because we need to be reminded that in the bounty of the Divine giving and receiving, there is no lack and therefore no necessity for fear.

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22 May 2018 or 8 Sivan
5 GEVURAH OF WANDS

ESSENCE: Feeling uninspired and disconnected from Source. The well is dry. Life may seem routine, repetitive, meaningless. Our energy seems to have suddenly drained away. We question our original idea and wonder if our faith was misplaced.

The Gevurah (five) of Wands may be indicative of a time when we are feeling uninspired; the well is dry and we feel disconnected from Source. Where previously we were completely immersed in the creative process, we now experience a sense of loss. We feel constricted and question the meaning or direction in our life. There is a sense that, the magic we originally experienced is gone, and we fear it may never return. Life seems routine and repetitious.

The five of Wands may indicate a time when we are physically or psychically drained. It may be an indication that the physical demands of our body or environment weigh too heavily.

This is a signal that what’s important now is to take care of the mundane and all that was ignored or left unfinished when we were fully engaged in our creative process. It’s time to come back down to earth. We need to face that which in the throws of inspiration was neglected, now requires care.

This distress we experience is but a sign of the times, the other side of the same creative process. It is important to remember that this experience of postpartum depression is simply the flip side of our creative process. The earlier experience of expansiveness and immersion required this time of felt constriction for balance, for rest.

All that is to be done is to wait out the bad time and persevere in acting as though the inspiration is there so as not to lose track or focus. Thus, when the energy changes, we are able to return again to an even richer creative expression.

REVERSED:  When the Gevurah of Wands is reversed, the dry time we feel stuck in may be of longer duration or our experience of depressed and constricted energies are felt more intensely. It is possible that our blocked energy has a psychological source that we need to work through or come to terms with in order for any change in our situation to occur.

In doing so, we must nevertheless be careful in our vulnerability, that we don’t allow ourselves to be dominated by other’s values. These can only carry us further from our source and lead us to conform or imitate. This is a time to examine the way fear and desire for security makes us distrust our creative impulses or intuition. If we wish to restore our ability to live creatively, even when looking outside ourselves for assistance and inspiration, we need to remain attentive to our inner truth and trust our own reality.

It might be a signal that we can’t do it all alone and therefore should look outside ourselves for help and new sources of inspiration.

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21 May 2018 or 7 Sivan 5778
5 GEVURAH OF WHEELS

ESSENCE: We feel discouraged as all our efforts come to naught. The job or break never came. Time to review priorities, hit the reset button and start over. We need faith, trusting that with increased self-knowledge and perseverance, we’ll find our way through this challenging time.

The Gevurah (five) of Wheels represents the arrival of lean times. Plans fall through. Good fortune we expected never materializes. It may be we lose or are at risk of losing a job. The stress and anxiety concerning our work, money or other resources, now begins to have an adverse effect on our health and or our intimate relationships.

We may be tempted to be stingy, fearful and overly self-protective. It is important to realize that this is no one’s fault. It is beyond our control and merely a reflection of the times.

Sometimes all we can do is trust and not allow the apparent hopelessness of the situation to discourage or keep us from believing in our deeper sense of purpose. We may need to have a good cry and self-pity fest. Then it’s time to review our priorities, re-examine our wants versus our needs, hit the reset button and change direction, or start over.

All will turn around eventually as long as we persevere with our convictions. A generous attitude even in the midst of poverty helps. It may also help to re-examine our attitudes and beliefs to learn how they contribute to our misery.

REVERSED: When The Gevurah is reversed we may be even more fearful that our good fortune has flown away forever. This may in fact be the case. If so, we still have a choice as to our response, attitude and values. It may help to examine what might be learned from our present challenge. We may want to consider making adjustments to our life style and expectations. This can help fortify us in the face of any suffering.

This reversal can offer us an opportunity to develop new areas of creativity. We may discover inner resources, that when cultivated can give us tools to transform ourselves, and our relationship to the situation. Then, we can see it through new eyes.

It is important to remain responsible, fearless, open and able to respond to the demands of our times. Then positive changes begin to manifest. Even if literal wealth evades us our life can be richer with purpose and gratitude.

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20 May 2018 or 6 Sivan 5778
3 BINAH OF CUPS

ESSENCE:The process of falling in love, or reawakening our love again, for the world, our life, our purpose, a beloved, or a friend. Euphoria, joy and a sense of discovery fills our heart. This is an exciting magical time of closeness, shared growth and gratitude.

The Binah (three) of Cups contains the process of falling in love. It energizes all aspects of our life bringing forth feelings of intense euphoria, joy, and harmony. We share our dreams and life stories. There is a feeling of having discovered something or someone where we can express our whole selves. Someone we can really talk to. We experience an intense drive to be fused with the object of our love. Now that we have finally discovered our perfect place or soul mate, even the most mundane things when done together, take on a magical and wondrous quality. This is a time of sharing growth on many levels, deep communication and communion. Although by necessity this heightened state is temporary, it nevertheless can form the foundation for dedication to our life’s true passion, and to love and a lasting relationship.

It often involves the discovery of the anima or animus in the other. Those repressed, neglected, or latent qualities, which we may not yet but need to see in our selves, are enlivened and revealed. This is a wonderful time for learning and expanding awareness of our potential. The Binah of Cups may also represent a time in an established relationship when both parties suddenly look at each other with new eyes, and their appreciation and love’s original intensity is rekindled. It is these moments that nourish even longstanding relationships. 

REVERSED: When reversed, this card may indicate a one-sided or imbalanced love, where one person loves more than the other. Or it might indicate unrequited love.

It could be a signal or caution that just as a student, who believes her teacher, when he looks toward her side of the room is making eyes just at her, we are indulging in a one-sided or delusional projection.

The Binah reversed, can serve as a warning against the delusional belief that we can make, or even force, the object of our desire to fall in love with us. Such delusions create a dangerous or, at the very least, unfulfilling situation.

When we examine our projections and reclaim them as our own we learn much from this experience. In reclaiming our projections and realizing that the beauty and gifts we see in the other are actually our own, we free ourselves and take back our power, be that after a time of taking them for granted, we are awakened again to the value and importance of our longstanding friendships.

This might simply describe our awakening to those moments that nourish and enlighten any aspect of our life and life’s work.

The passion and dedication we feel for our chosen path although not romantic can also be imbued with the transformative magic, which makes it as necessary, vital and important as a personal relationship.

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19 May 2018 or 5 Sivan 5778
מם 40 MEM, WATER, MOTHER OF ALL LIFE, the 2nd MOTHER LETTER

ESSENCE: Symbolic of water, Mother of all life which shapes, nourishes, informs, and forms the material world and all living beings. Like water we must dissolve our stony ego and false ideas of self. Our egoistic desires are sacrificed for the needs of the other. To grow we need to sacrifice our control: release the child and free our love. We must become open and fluid, able to go deep. Rider-Waite Tarot: The Hanged One / Sacrifice

 Mem is the number 40. It is symbolic of water, Mother of All Life–the primeval ocean. The letter Mem has two forms. When used at the beginning or middle of words it is open. At end of a word it is closed. There are almost twice as many Mem words in the Hebrew dictionary than any other letter.

Like Dalet (4) Mem (40) must sacrifice Her Original Unity. Here the one birthed in Dalet, has grown and Mem must sacrifice her attachment. She must free the child so it can become its own person–a true adult. The enlightening energy arising with Lamed now demands we sacrifice our infantile dependence so as to own our transformation and claim our freedom.

Nothing can live without water so all that lives, owes its existence to Mem. In the Bible Story of Creation, God is said to have divided water in two, becoming sky “the waters above,” and lakes, rivers and oceans of the earth, “the water’s below.” Water circulates through all that lives, forming rain, sap, milk, and blood. It preserves, nourishes and forms our world. Mem,being 40, is also particularly significant because the number forty appears numerous times in the Torah. The most well known being the stories of Noah, and the story of the Read Sea parting as the Jews escape slavery in Egypt and pass through the sea to freedom. Then after 40 days wandering, they receive the Ten Commandments and become a people.

The Mother letter Mem, is water (mayim). This Mother letter reflects the original esoteric meanings of Mem as representing the Great Water Goddess, mother of all that lives and the material world. She is Mother Nature who rules the waters within and waters without. She softens and shapes us: forms, nourishes, dissolves, and transforms us. One moment She infuses our dreams and knowing with Her wisdom, the next She is terrifying and destructive mocking our helplessness dependence. Mem overturns our reality and forces us to ask why? Both creator and destroyer, She circulates through our lives and reminds us there can be no growth without loss or sacrifice, no life without death.

She is the Eternal Question and Eternal Mystery, the miracle of life’s inherent wisdom.Mem is also the water of the Mikvah, a bath where we are immersed and cleansed so that our old self may die and we can be reborn, renewed.

We now must become in-formed and sacrificing our ego, plunge into unknown depths. Naked, relinquishing all nonessentials, we descend into the dark waters of our hidden selves so we might come up whole. Only then can we choose to become a mensch (a moral and enlightened person) an adult, an artist, a free person shaping our own lives wherever possible. And, where we cannot control the circumstances of our lives, we can still shape our emotional response in the face of inevitability.

The Mem corresponds to the Hanged One in the Tarot, in that it doesn’t represent a literal death or end. Rather it represents the symbolic death or sacrifice. The Mem can be interpreted as the emotional, spiritual and even physical sacrifice a mother makes as she releases her child to foster her child’s, as well as her own growth to maturity.

page58image5050624REVERSED:   When Mem is reversed the sacrifice is more painful or is faced with great reluctance. In either case, this reversal offers us an opportunity for growth and healing. Even when fate appears to be mocking it brings an opportunity. We can turn the hurtful stone in our gut into a pearl of wisdom and gather strength to share our painfully gained understanding. When reversed, this card is a reminder that Mem manifests in the material world so the sacrifice and growth required of us must involve action in the world.

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18 May 2018 or 4 Sivan 5778
מם 40 MEM, WATER, MOTHER OF ALL LIFE, the 2nd MOTHER LETTER

ESSENCE: Symbolic of water, Mother of all life which shapes, nourishes, informs, and forms the material world and all living beings. Like water we must dissolve our stony ego and false ideas of self. Our egoistic desires are sacrificed for the needs of the other. To grow we need to sacrifice our control: release the child and free our love. We must become open and fluid, able to go deep. Rider-Waite Tarot: The Hanged One / Sacrifice

 Mem is the number 40. It is symbolic of water, Mother of All Life–the primeval ocean. The letter Mem has two forms. When used at the beginning or middle of words it is open. At end of a word it is closed. There are almost twice as many Mem words in the Hebrew dictionary than any other letter.

Like Dalet (4) Mem (40) must sacrifice Her Original Unity. Here the one birthed in Dalet, has grown and Mem must sacrifice her attachment. She must free the child so it can become its own person–a true adult. The enlightening energy arising with Lamed now demands we sacrifice our infantile dependence so as to own our transformation and claim our freedom.

Nothing can live without water so all that lives, owes its existence to Mem. In the Bible Story of Creation, God is said to have divided water in two, becoming sky “the waters above,” and lakes, rivers and oceans of the earth, “the water’s below.” Water circulates through all that lives, forming rain, sap, milk, and blood. It preserves, nourishes and forms our world. Mem,being 40, is also particularly significant because the number forty appears numerous times in the Torah. The most well known being the stories of Noah, and the story of the Read Sea parting as the Jews escape slavery in Egypt and pass through the sea to freedom. Then after 40 days wandering, they receive the Ten Commandments and become a people.

The Mother letter Mem, is water (mayim). This Mother letter reflects the original esoteric meanings of Mem as representing the Great Water Goddess, mother of all that lives and the material world. She is Mother Nature who rules the waters within and waters without. She softens and shapes us: forms, nourishes, dissolves, and transforms us. One moment She infuses our dreams and knowing with Her wisdom, the next She is terrifying and destructive mocking our helplessness dependence. Mem overturns our reality and forces us to ask why? Both creator and destroyer, She circulates through our lives and reminds us there can be no growth without loss or sacrifice, no life without death.

She is the Eternal Question and Eternal Mystery, the miracle of life’s inherent wisdom.Mem is also the water of the Mikvah, a bath where we are immersed and cleansed so that our old self may die and we can be reborn, renewed.

We now must become in-formed and sacrificing our ego, plunge into unknown depths. Naked, relinquishing all nonessentials, we descend into the dark waters of our hidden selves so we might come up whole. Only then can we choose to become a mensch (a moral and enlightened person) an adult, an artist, a free person shaping our own lives wherever possible. And, where we cannot control the circumstances of our lives, we can still shape our emotional response in the face of inevitability.

The Mem corresponds to the Hanged One in the Tarot, in that it doesn’t represent a literal death or end. Rather it represents the symbolic death or sacrifice. The Mem can be interpreted as the emotional, spiritual and even physical sacrifice a mother makes as she releases her child to foster her child’s, as well as her own growth to maturity.

page58image5050624REVERSED:   When Mem is reversed the sacrifice is more painful or is faced with great reluctance. In either case, this reversal offers us an opportunity for growth and healing. Even when fate appears to be mocking it brings an opportunity. We can turn the hurtful stone in our gut into a pearl of wisdom and gather strength to share our painfully gained understanding. When reversed, this card is a reminder that Mem manifests in the material world so the sacrifice and growth required of us must involve action in the world.

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17 May 2018 or 3 Sivan 5778
8 HOD OF WANDS

ESSENCE: We’ve learned to trust our Divine Guidance. Time to act on and exemplify our newfound awareness. Take a risk, change direction. Now we need to review our creation and decide if it’s working or not. The wisest choice may sometimes be to tear up our lovely page for the good of the whole.

The Hod (eight) of Wands says that having had the rest, and chance for reflection and gratitude (as required by the Netzach of Wands) the time now demands we act. It is time to live fully with the lesson of faith, to practice, work and exemplify our new awareness. We are called to risk ourselves yet have faith in the invisible. It is important to trust in our vision, even if this trust goes counter to all our rationality.

There is a great potential for spiritual growth though coupled with feelings of fear. We leap like divers entering a lake. Even fearing the cold mysterious water that swirls beneath the board, we still take the breath and plunge into the freedom of the unknown. The world may disappear, but the illusion of security that the shore offers is not important. What matters is our commitment to the Encounter–to Life. In a time of spiritual testing, we are called to move beyond our fears. This is when we need to let down our walls and defenses and stretch ourselves to manifest our highest possibilities. We can only become fully alive as we develop the inner strength to live with sometimes almost overwhelming anxiety, insecurity, and sensitivity required by our creative passion.

REVERSED: If the Wands Hod position is reversed, fear is stopping us from fulfilling our potential. A greater understanding of the dynamics of fear is needed. We may ask, “What is the worst that can happen if I do this?”

Really examine your worst imagining. Then ask “what then?”

With each answer, keep asking this question as you enter, visualize and examine the worst result.

Inaction is still an action. Stagnation is not a solution.

This reversal reminds us that our situation now requires a commitment to stay in the dynamic present rather than reacting in a habitual way. If we submit to fear and doubt, we will freeze our potential and stifle our creative connection. Trusting, or at least acting as we might if we did have trust, is essential so we may take a needed plunge into the chill dark water wherein our treasure lies.

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16 May 2018 or 2 Sivan 5778
7 NETZACH OF SWORDS

ESSENCE: Our constant search for answers has led us to the realization of the subjective nature of reality. We’re filled with doubts and confusion. We question all authority. Seeing too many possibilities and not wanting to narrow our options makes decisions difficult.

The Netzach (seven) of Swords represents the experience of the outsider or doubter. As a questioner, we have no belief in authority, even sometimes of our own. Here is a situation or problem we cannot think our way out. When we try to think things through, we find ourselves entangled in options, opinions and also fruitless mental games and negotiations. At this time many signals seem mixed or otherwise unclear. Misunderstandings abound when we’re not sure of what information means or whom to trust. Each time we think we have found the solution, a new possibility negates it. We doubt ourselves, and others. Fearful of making a wrong decision we risk becoming hopelessly impotent. Through doing this we can miss the time for action altogether.

In the Netzach of Swords hesitation or confusion can be disastrous. This is not a time for halfway measures. We need to commit to a path of action and trust in the wisdom of the unconscious. It is essential if our endeavors are to be successful. Finally, if we remain frozen in indecision our choices may be taken over by another. This will not be to our advantage.

If we find ourselves circling yet never reaching the heart of a matter, we need to give thinking and analyzing a rest. Instead we should trust in our instinctive and spontaneous wisdom. When the house is on fire, there’s no time to consider how to rescue the grand piano we just grab the children and leave before the roof caves in. Sometimes it’s appropriate for action to precede thought. This is the time!

REVERSED: When reversed, the Netzach of Swords indicates a situation when we should look before we leap and not let fear or a restless need for action make us unwilling to wait in the limbo of uncertainty. We must not now leap into action without sufficient thought or provocation. Our hatred of uncertainty and the state of suspense may tempt us to push matters to a conclusion, any conclusion, even if it results in destruction, and the manifestation of our fears.

For example, the reversal may indicate we’re willing to accept a partnership, job proposal, offer of marriage, or legal settlement because we are fearful of not getting another one. Or we may agree to a medical procedure without waiting to get a second or even third opinion. If we do so we may find ourselves in an unfortunate situation that we could have avoided had we shown greater patience.

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15 May 2018 or 1 Sivan 5778
10 MALKHUT OF WHEELS

ESSENCE: The Malkhut (ten) of Wheels is about gratitude. We feel thankful for all our blessings, all we have, all we’ve experienced and for our gift of life. We are grateful for however much or little we have and feel that it is enough. We are thankful for the people and relationships in our life (even the difficult ones). We love fully.

The Malkhut represents a balance and bringing together of all aspects of our life. Here we attain fulfillment through utilizing our spiritual, emotional, intellectual and material involvements. Our life is integrated.

The Malkhut of Wheels may also mean we’ve found a way to express our passion and have it support us. Our skills, emotions and sensitivities flow together. We’ve learned how to balance our relationship needs with our need for work and our experience of living a meaningful life.

Cycles of activity and rest are accepted and lived fully. We feel free, and can be fearless and joyful in all areas of our life. We are able to nurture the people we love and take care of our own needs at the same time. We are responsible and experience our connection to the Whole Holiness.

We accept change as essential to the ebb and flow of life’s tides. We recognize that self-knowledge and learning involves the continual process of changing, integrating and deepening our awareness of life itself. Enlightenment is not a fixed state but rather the continual awakening of consciousness and coming to know Truth.

REVERSED:  When reversed, lingering fears and habits of thought hold us back from the realization of our wealth and a true acceptance of life. We may have it all yet somehow we’re unable to recognize our good fortune.

When the Malkhut is reversed we are stuck in the perception that we are the object of our lives, not the subject. We are too passive. We don’t own our life. Our good or bad fortune is seen as something that just happened, or was done to us without our participation. It is seen as something we have no responsibility for, not as something we have created or chosen.

We need to develop forgiveness. We need to forgive ourselves, and others for what we perceive as imperfections, weaknesses and mistakes. We even need to forgive the evil done to us. We realize we oppress ourselves with those whom we don’t forgive. Until we finally learn to own and choose to break our habit of repeating the same dysfunctional or abusive behaviors or relationships, we will be damned to repeat them.

We need to release our blame, resentment, anger, and hatred. Once we finally recognize our response ability, and that we are response able for determining how we choose to perceive our life, we become free.

 

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14 May 2018 or 28 Iyyar 5778
KETAR, ACE OF WHEELS

ESSENCE: The material world where inspiration, emotion, and thought unites becoming the world of manifestation. We give concrete form to the dreams our energy creates. As the Wheel comes to earth, it may carry the arrival of a surprise, a gift or a vital message.

The image of the Ketar(Ace) of Wheels is of a wheel turning as it descends to earth.  It looks like a wheel in my more formal deck.  In my more informal, playful deck the wheel is a pizza. Both symbolize coming to earth, grounding our energy in order to create and nurture our development as it takes concrete form. Furthermore, the image of a pizza is used to express the delicious juiciness when all three elements unite in the material world.  In Wheels the Primary Three Mothers–Shin (fire),Mem (Water) Aleph (Air) represented in the Minor Arcana as the suits of Wands, Cups and Swords, join giving birth to the material world.  In the Ketar of Wheels we embark on the impulse to manifestation.  We enter the realm of the earth.

The fruits of our spiritual, emotional and mental efforts now come to ground. It brings  with it the potential for prosperity, money, a new job, property, the first manifestation of any new-born creation, even a baby. What is wished for can now be granted. For better or worse, our prayers are answered. Labor and rest, growth and action, our potential to shape and be shaped is our capacity for building and giving concrete form to our dreams. We may make a name for ourselves, make our mark on the world, or create a legacy.

If well aspected by the surrounding cards, The Ketar of Wheels may also indicate pennies from Heaven, an arrival, a happy surprise and the reception of a legacy, an unexpected gift.  

REVERSED:  When reversed, the Ketar of Wheels is a warning to be careful of what we ask for.  It reminds us that things are not always what they appear to be.  Some wishes, when granted, make the wisher wish they had never wished for it in the first place. Here is a reminder that every wish granted, everything we create, carries with it new responsibilities, and commitments and demands more energy from us. As such, we need to prepare for the change, challenge and growth it brings. Here is a wake up call. If we are not grounded, this reversal, is reminding us we must now take the time to become grounded. If blessings come when we are not ready, the adjustment required may be more challenging. Like having a child before we are ready and mature enough to take on the responsibility and challenge of our life focus changing from being about ourselves to the care for another.

 

 

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13 May 2018 or 27 Iyyar 5778
30 ל LAMED, OX-GOAD, UPRAISED ARM, LIGHTENING

ESSENCE: As an ox-goad or upraised arm, Lamed refers to all that raises and extends to impel an animal. It is related to the idea of lightening and all that lifts us up and by illuminating the darkness, transforms and enlightens us.  Rider-Waite Tarot:Strength

The Lamed is the number 30, the symbol of an Ox goad or an arm upraised. It represents all that extends, uplifts or unfolds.  Lamed is what impresses or impels the animal to some course or activity.  Because it is upraised, it is related to ideas of elevation and inspiration.  It is the serpent energy in the body, our animal self that can be raised through the center to merge with the Divine.  By extension, Lamed also addresses the opportunity to be transformed or transform others through learning or study.  Aware as teacher we are also the student.  We can be called upon to teach, charm or inspire and by so doing raise up that which is down.

The Hebrew word meaning night, Lila, is Lamed, also the name of the Angel of the Night. Within the body of the Midrash (stories or interpretations which elaborate on the deeper meanings of incidents in the Bible) it is Lila who educates the soul. She carries the soul throughout the universe, teaching it all it can learn in the months before its emergence into the world as a newborn.

The darkness of the night and the white flame blade of lightning that illuminates and throws everything suddenly into focus, into consciousness are Lamed.  

Lamed had a special relationship to the Vav (6) because together they form magical number 36, the number representing Life eternal.  Also, the Lamed Vav, or 36 truly righteous and good beings born in every generation. It is said that if even one of these humble, and thus hidden in plane sight, persons were missing, the world would come to an end,

It exemplifies the strength the small must have to balance the great or powerful.  On Chanukah, the darkest night of the year, it is the strength of a single candle flame that by its existence balances the vast darkness.  Lamed is the summer rain-storm that refreshes nature and relieves a prolonged state of tension.  Like the electrical energy that comes rushing up from the earth, Lamed is the heart singing and healing laughter. We delight in learning through joy, for that which the heart learns, the mind remembers. Finally, Lamed is the fool having the chutzpah to talk back to the Eternal One, and the miracle of the Eternal One listening.

The card Lamed shares some meaning with the Rider-Waite Tarot: card, Strength.

This is a spiritual strength, a triumph of intelligence over brutality. It is not the strength that vanquishes or eradicates the opposition. Instead, it is the strength that integrates opposites and maintains balance in both the personal and universal realms. It is about gaining a new perspective. For like the lightening, Lamed is the sudden illumination that brings understanding and enlightenment.

REVERSED:  When the message of Lamed is reversed, it means that we are being too stale and weighty. Time to stop feeling helpless or pessimistic. Time to lift off our heavy stones of guilt. We need to forgive ourselves, and others as we realize that the weight of blame and hurt, anger or resentment crushes our lives. The time has come for a fresh approach. We need to develop a sense of humor and perspective.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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12 May 2018 or 26 Iyyar 5778
10 י YOD, FINGER, MICROCOSM

ESSENCE: The image representing a finger or hand symbolic of the microcosm carries all potential for manifestation. Withdrawing into our center we invite Holy Wisdom to infuse us. Complete in our self we can join others or remain single.  Rider-Waite Tarot: Hermit
 
Yod is the number 10, a finger, or a hand. As the smallest letter, it holds all potential to become manifest. 

Where the Aleph is One containing the multiplicity, the macrocosm, Yod represents the microcosm. This letter, like the recently discovered Higgs Particle, has a magnetic quality, which draws others in to join it to co-create a new essence.

Unique, singular and alone, although complete in itself, Yod still longs to be together with another. Yod is the gravity which unites, the yoni drawing the lover in, the moon pulling the tides, the Absolute Creative Essence, God in unison–magnetic Wholeness. Yod as the central point, simultaneously ends one cycle and begins the next, for following its ultimate contraction, Yod must expand outward again.

Because the Yod represents the most microcosmic particle, it indicates the necessity of withdrawing into our center, our point of quietude and it speaks of the place where the still, small voice can be heard.

If we are open in a state of creative rest, of expectant anticipation of union, of Shabbat, then inspiration will come. This is the time to wait and trust in the Holy One. We are required to pause, just as Moses at the Reed Sea did. With his hand (five fingers) and his rod (the tool or sixth finger) raised, he waited to be united with the seventh, theYod of God the Divine Creative Essence. It is these seven together which cause the sea to open. The miracle can happen only when we are united with Creator of ALL the Eternal One. Thus, Yod teaches us not to overwork or strain, but to combine work and rest, striving and relaxed openness. It urges us to become patient and expectant like the dry earth awaiting the first rain.

Just as the Rider-Waite Tarot: Hermit card indicates an internal journey, the Yodexpresses the need for being alone, having a restful mind and contemplative openness.

REVERSED:  If the Yod is reversed, it means we are trying too hard. We may not know or recognize what we have. Here, it is also the still small voice begging us to stop and listen.

This reversal serves as a reminder that, just as a woman in labor must combine work with openness, periods of deep faith and relaxation for the birthing process to succeed, it is the same with all that we would bring to birth.

“I sleep, but my heart waketh: it is the voice of my beloved that knocketh, saying, ‘Open to me my sister, my love, my dove, my undefiled; for my head is filled with dew, and my locks with the drops of the night.” Solomon’s Song, Chapter 5, verse 2 Holy Bible

Yod reversed reminds us some things must not be forced. That which we desire comes only when we, and it are ready. The land lies fertile, waiting for the first raindrops.

everywhere the dew
so small
the smallest inevitability

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11 May 2018 or 25 Iyyar 5778
KING OF WANDS

ESSENCE: Creative and spiritual, he’s a dreamer. A truly independent spirit, he can be a good husband, but his freedom is paramount. Being receptive, empathic and playful, able to inspire the young and can be good father, teacher and partner.

The King of Wands is a man who, like the Queen, is connected with the creative. The flaming wand grows up beside him. King of the Wood, he is the King of green branches in the warmth of the sun, one with the creative abundance of the summer, laughing and playful. The king is a truly independent spirit whose freedom comes from his connection to Source. He has an enormous capacity for creative work. He is a man or one whose masculine energy manifests as a dreamer who can channel the animating fire, represented by his salamander, that unites all life in the co-creating. This is a man who can be sympathetic and even motherly, for he is so receptive to the Feminine aspect. He is trustworthy, and honest, a good friend and father. His male and female aspects are welded into one, so he understands, teaches sympathizes with, and inspires the young. The King of Wands is never mean, petty or manipulative. He is proud but not usually prideful. He is a magician, although not necessarily the kind that does tricks. His magic is the artistic manifestation of his creative channeling. He may also be a religious leader or simply a highly spiritual person.

REVERSED: When the card is reversed, it may indicate insensitivity to the feelings of others. Because he can become so involved in his creative endeavors, he can shut out his own physical needs as well as the physical or emotional needs of others. He can be impractical, someone with his head in the clouds. He can be unpredictable but never boring. Since money is of not any particular importance, he may or may not have very much, although there’s usually enough to get by.

As a potential partner it’s important to know he views financial security or any other security as illusory. This belief, which can appear as stinginess, may make him insecure about resources.

Or, he may seem reluctant to make a concrete commitment, since in his philosophical view, change is the only thing he knows can be counted on.

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10 May 2018 or 24 Iyyar 5778
5 GEVURAH OF WHEELS

ESSENCE: We feel discouraged as all our efforts come to naught. The job or break never came. Time to review priorities, hit the reset button and start over. We need faith, trusting that with increased self-knowledge and perseverance, we’ll find our way through this challenging time.

The Gevurah (five) of Wheels represents the arrival of lean times. Plans fall through. Good fortune we expected never materializes. It may be we lose or are at risk of losing a job. The stress and anxiety concerning our work, money or other resources, now begins to have an adverse effect on our health and or our intimate relationships.

We may be tempted to be stingy, fearful and overly self-protective. It is important to realize that this is no one’s fault. It is beyond our control and merely a reflection of the times.

Sometimes all we can do is trust and not allow the apparent hopelessness of the situation to discourage or keep us from believing in our deeper sense of purpose. We may need to have a good cry and self-pity fest. Then it’s time to review our priorities, re-examine our wants versus our needs, hit the reset button and change direction, or start over.

All will turn around eventually as long as we persevere with our convictions. A generous attitude even in the midst of poverty helps. It may also help to re-examine our attitudes and beliefs to learn how they contribute to our misery.

REVERSED: When The Gevurah is reversed we may be even more fearful that our good fortune has flown away forever. This may in fact be the case. If so, we still have a choice as to our response, attitude and values. It may help to examine what might be learned from our present challenge. We may want to consider making adjustments to our life style and expectations. This can help fortify us in the face of any suffering.

This reversal can offer us an opportunity to develop new areas of creativity. We may discover inner resources, that when cultivated can give us tools to transform ourselves, and our relationship to the situation. Then, we can see it through new eyes.

It is important to remain responsible, fearless, open and able to respond to the demands of our times. Then positive changes begin to manifest. Even if literal wealth evades us our life can be richer with purpose and gratitude.

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9 May 2018 or 23 Iyyar 5778
8 ח CHET, FIELD ENCLOSED, FIELD OF RESPONSIBILITY

ESSENCE: Chet represents a fenced field. That which we claim for ourselves becomes our responsibility. Whatever we are pledged to alters and transforms us. We love and are loved creating and nurturing lasting relationships. Rider-Waite Tarot: Chariot

Chet is the number 8, a field enclosed, and the fence enclosing it. The choice offered by Zayin has been made. One plot of land has been selected from all that lay before us. When we built a fence around it we thereby claimed it for ourselves. Chet, is to be responsible, to pledge ourselves. We are altered and transformed by how we respond to our responsibilities.

For our chosen land to be productive requires the labor of sowing and returning, then waiting patiently, for our garden to bloom. When it does, Chet is to make happy, to bless, to love and be loved. It is the wedding canopy and wedding; which also represents the choice to select and pledge one other for our care, attention and responsibility. Additionally, the letter refers to friendship, to the commitment and cultivation of relationships so that they, like the field, may bear fruit in the physical, emotional, and spiritual levels of our being so that we also grow and flourish.

Wisdom begins with Chet. As with responsibility, wisdom grows when we allow ourselves to be penetrating and penetrable. When we recognize that growth comes through our exchange of love, energy and care, we share strength and vulnerability with our beloved. We are then able to continually discover the miraculous uniqueness of that other to whom we are pledged.

Life is Chet, as is freedom. When we are free we can choose that which we claim as our own. Then it becomes our responsibility. Even if to be free, to be truly alive, we must be willing to run the risk of weeping a little, or even a lot. Thus, Chet also brings suffering, whether the happy suffering of birth pains or the agony of devastation, which is the inevitable end of even (and especially) the deepest love relationships.

The Chet card shares some meaning with the Tarot Chariot card for that which we conquer and claim as our own, becomes our responsibility.

REVERSED: When reversed, the Chet speaks of failure to take responsibility because we are fearful of vulnerability and/or unable or unwilling to value sufficiently, that to which we were once committed. This may indicate a need for us to repair a pledge we have broken or relationship we have harmed.

We might ask, “Could what I want, in any way, result in the injury, conquest or enslavement of another?”

Conversely, it might be a warning that a promise made to us, has been, or is, in danger of being unfulfilled. It could indicate that someone whom we are dealing with is untrustworthy and trying to manipulate or enslave us.

We might ask, “Am I allowing myself to be coerced into committing to something against my better judgment?”

If we are avoiding or wavering in our commitment to an action, we may sin by missing the mark: in a half way attempt to shoot an apple off our friend’s head we may hit his eye instead. Through careless inattention, and not being fully responsible and attentive in our actions we risk hurting ourselves or harming another. Then, the Chet appears to remind us to watch where we step. The ground we walk on is Holy. Chet reversed reminds us, that when we allow ourselves to be fenced in by fear of suffering, we fence out life.

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8 May 2018 or 22 Iyyar 5778
8 HOD OF SWORDS

ESSENCE: Authority. The discomfort and fear embedded in doubt has led us to seek an absolute authority. Or conversely, we may ourselves claim to be one. Dogma is seductive. Fear of taking responsibility subjects our freedom, choices and life to an outside authority.

The Hod (eight) of Swords represents the opposite of the Netzach. The pendulum has swung from the doubter to the authoritarian. We are at risk of accepting the word of an authority without questioning. All authority, especially when concerned with thought and understanding are destructive and possibly evil since they usurp our own experience and perceptions.

Negative self-judgment is the base for the insecurity that binds and restricts our ability for independent thought and action. Insecurity based fears cause us to retreat from our inner truth and look outside for the answers. We may be afraid of accepting responsibility for our choices or actions, and are therefore willing to submit control of our life to someone who claims to know better or even claims, “I know you better than you know yourself.”

Our need for rightness may take the form of submitting our mental freedom and spontaneous creative consciousness to a restrictive inner authority and our own self-generated dogma. We may be stuck in the arrogant belief that our opinions and values are infallible. We can be as bound and enslaved by our narrow, rigid, perception of a situation’s possible choices, as we were in the Netzach of Swords when we were afraid of making a wrong choice or decision. It is essential to recognize the egotism of these fears and then to break free to make more creative choices.

REVERSED: When the Hod of Swords is reversed, we have accepted the authority of a negative parental voice. We have allowed this voice to undermine our self-confidence and our freedom of action. Words such as: You’re not good enough, it’s all your fault, how could anyone worthwhile ever love someone like you, you don’t know anything, bind us into a state of immobility. This causes us to fail to act in our own best interest. Intimidated and helpless, we are in danger of being victimized. We may even contribute to our own victimization through our inability to assert our rights.

If this is the case, it is important we develop a strong inner voice to counter the negative messages. A strong affirming inner voice can help us know, trust and assert our own truth.

Even if at first we don’t believe the beneficent voice, with practice we can learn how to counter our negative, destructive messages. Statements like, “I trust myself to know what’s best for me.” or “It’s okay if I’m not perfect, at least I’m working on myself,” may help loosen the bonds of the situation.

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7 May 2018 or 21 Iyyar
  9    ט   TET, SERPENT, KARMA

ESSENCE:  Tet, a serpent symbolizes the Great Mother.  The Wise Preserving Force and Lawmaker, offers us knowledge and loss of innocence, then holds us responsible for our choices.  Our karmic teacher invites us to know our Holiness.  Rider-Waite Tarot:Justice

Tet is the number 9, Serpent, Karma the Great Mother forming a shelter or roof with her body.  She holds us in her dark lap and teaches us her wisdom. She protects and covers us over and rocks us to sleep.  At the navel, the center, where the secrets of life are hidden, she is the shield and natural preserving force, the energy that breathes and lifts us as we breathe.

While Chet is a fence around a field, Tet is the serpent protecting and surrounding the fence. Chet is a field or garden enclosed and Tet is the serpent of wisdom curled around the tree at its center.  As the serpent in the garden who first inspired us with the knowledge of good and evil, she now holds us responsible for that which we have chosen to make our own.  Tet is the truth we must face.  Linked to wisdom and to prophetic dreams where the Divine reveals itself, She opens our mind to knowledge and our destiny. She is the lawmaker and councilor, the place deep in our center where we know whether our choices are right or wrong, healthy or destructive.  When we are sheltered and immersed in goodness she is the hidden treasure, the wholeness that is in our own depths, a gift to be discovered.  It is the miracle by which we live.

Now made pure, we are given the power and the intelligence to fly with the highest Self. The serpent that tempted us with the knowledge of good and evil forces us to grow up. We have what is needed for a safe journey: a foundation and the loss of innocence, for Tetis good. “I would lead thee, and bring thee into my mother’s house who would instruct me…”Solomon’s Song, Chapter 8, verse 2 Holy Bible.

Tet is related to the Tarot card Justice. Here, at the center of the Garden, in the protection of her lap, we are taught and guided by the results of our choices; of how we have responded to the realm of responsibility, all that we chose and committed to in Chet. Tetis the natural consequences by which we learn; she is the collector of karmic debts, the severe but still-loving mother. 

REVERSED:  When Tet is reversed, it refers to those things we do that separate ourselves from our highest good or wholeness. There is too much concern with self-protection. We may be behaving in selfish and irresponsible egocentric ways. We have grown too fond of the dark lap, sleeping curled and covered, even when She would have uswake up.

It is time to awaken and realize that it is only in the hiding, the lack of trust in our relationships, the secrets we keep from ourselves, and those we profess to love, that separate us from the Garden.

 

                                               

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6 May 2018 or 20 Iyyar 5778
KING OF CUPS

ESSENCE:  A wise, kind, mature man comfortable in the emotional realm.  He is a good father, counselor or teacher who views change philosophically.  He sees transformation and change as a necessary manifestation of the order in chaos.

The King of Cups represents a wise older man.  He is full of love and kindness prompted by his ability to feel deeply and empathetically.  His being twinkles like sunlight on water.  The dove of the Goddess is in his heart.  The dolphin dances in his hand and the moon’s phases, like bubbles, float in and out of his cup-shaped crown.  He is immersed in the sensitive chaos of life.  Emotions are under his control so he’s not swept away with their tides.  Being a good husband and father, he behaves toward others in a warm and supportive way. A good advisor and counselor, with a loving and nurturing manner in his relationships the King represents a mensch(fully responsible ethical human being).

The archetype embodied in The King of Cups expresses the manifestation of the loving Father God and his creative life of giving, compassionate, sustaining energy. This is the masculine counterpart of the Queen of Cups. Like her, he also is a sensual and sexual being.

Where The Queen is the constancy and the unity at the hub of the changing emotional seasons, The King is the alert compassionate observer who evaluates and helps each find its rightful place in the whole.

REVERSED:  When the King of Cups is reversed, it may indicate one who is too moody or lacking adequate emotional control.  Like the Queen in reversed position, he may be a dangerous narcissist using his empathic awareness of other’s emotions to manipulate them for his own ends. Or, this card may indicate one who is emotionally immature, over sensitive and possibly an alcoholic or addict. Either way, it indicates one who can drag others down with his moods or withdraw into his own depths, becoming unreachable until his inner storms clear. 

Buffeted about by acute sensitivity, he can be over protective of self or others.  He can be vengeful, arrogant and conceited.  In either case it is the result of the mistaken attempt to control forces that by their nature need freedom to flourish and grow. 

The King of Cups reversed may also simply indicate that the person manifesting the qualities of the archetype (of the upright or reversed card position) is female rather than male.

 

 

 

 

 

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May 5 2018 or 19 Iyyar 7 ז ZAYIN, SWORD, MAIL GENITALS, ALL THAT DIVIDES

ESSENCE: Zayin represents a sword and all objects that divide.  It encompasses concepts of duality and choice.  This sword that divides becomes sword of desire, since the awareness of our separation from original wholeness is exactly what compels us to reflect, remember and urges us toward union. Just as Zayin, the genitals create the longing to mate, Rider-Waite Tarot:Lovers

Zayin is the number 7, a sword, a javelin, a weapon, and all objects that cut through the air, sword of desire. Zayin is the male genitals creating the desire to mate.  Zayin is mating and the mate, wife and partner.  The same energy that divides and discriminates, through the process of separating, creates the urge to come together.  It is to pair and to be dependent.  Zayin is movement:  scattering seed, family, descendants to remember.  When Zayin, the sword, is attached to free will, it can cut through and, expose our greatest illusion.      That of the, “self-made person… I think therefore I am,” the illusion we are separate or more special than the rest of creation, separate from the Whole Holy, from God.

As the seventh day, Shabbat, it is the one day set aside, for us to rest and reflect on what has passed.  We can now look back over the six preceding days and from that vantage point, that remembering, we are again invited to join ourselves to The Eternal and gain the perspective and wisdom we need for the upcoming week.

Zayin comes after Vav, for first we are linked to the Divine Source, as was the original Adam and Eve in Eden. Next, awakened, given Knowledge and thus the ability of choice, we separate ourselves from Holy Source, so that we may choose to be joined again.  Our return then, is on a very different level.  Zayin is like the “terrible twos” when the child first realizes itself to be a separate being. It is this very thought which then creates the yearning for the perceived other.

 It is a card of separation.  Divided from our original infant-oneness, we begin to know ourselves, and our parent as separate beings.  Our dawning self-awareness divides us from Holy Source. We find ourselves expelled from our original Eden.  The sword of our will, bars our return to the innocent idyll of the past.  We have eaten from the knowledge of the Tree of Good and Evil.  Knowing choice, we begin to choose our own way. Now we may freely choose to remember and honor our dependence on the other, realize that without the other we are incomplete, to re-member Wholeness, from whence we came. Since Zayinis also about discernment, this card may indicate we are being pulled in two, equally tempting directions. It speaks for our need to make a clear choice.  

Zayin can be an affirmation that even if we have doubts, we have made the right choice. When we remember and reconnect to Holy Source, we see with Real eyes that our intuition united us with a deeper wisdom, and helped us discern the right choice.

The Zayin card shares some of the qualities of Rider-Waite Tarot,Lovers card. The ability to separate ourselves from what we consider our not-self, allows us to discern between equal energies and choose our right way. Also, our awareness of separation has created a lonely ache and feeling of incompleteness, that now becomes the longing to unite with another. This ache, of course, is the very thing that brings about our joyous union.

REVERSED:  When the Zayin card is reversed, we are trying to avoid making a choice. Where taking a long time to deliberate an important matter, may usually be a good idea, there are also times when we don’t have that luxury.  Sometimes our very survival or happiness depends on fast, decisive action. The time has now come to cut through fearful negativity, trust our connection to the Divine purpose, and act.

This reversal may be an indication that we have hesitated too long because of indecisiveness or fear. A clear choice must be made.

The negative of the Zayincan indicate a wrong choice and our need to change course or make amends.

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2 May 2018 or 17 Iyyar 5778
KING OF WANDS

ESSENCE: Creative and spiritual, he’s a dreamer. A truly independent spirit, he can be a good husband, but his freedom is paramount. Being receptive, empathic and playful, able to inspire the young and can be good father, teacher and partner. The King of Wands is a man who, like the Queen, is connected with the creative. The flaming wand grows up beside him. King of the Wood, he is the King of green branches in the warmth of the sun, one with the creative abundance of the summer, laughing and playful. The king is a truly independent spirit whose freedom comes from his connection to Source. He has an enormous capacity for creative work. He is a man or one whose masculine energy manifests as a dreamer who can channel the animating fire, represented by his salamander, that unites all life in the co-creating. This is a man who can be sympathetic and even motherly, for he is so receptive to the Feminine aspect. He is trustworthy, and honest, a good friend and father. His male and female aspects are welded into one, so understands, teaches sympathizes with, and inspires the young. The King of Wands is never mean, petty or manipulative. He is proud but not usually prideful. He is a magician, although not necessarily the kind that does tricks. His magic is the artistic manifestation of his creative channeling. He may be a religious leader or a spiritual person.

REVERSED: When the card is reversed, it may indicate insensitivity to the feelings of others. Because he can become so involved in his creative endeavors, he can shut out his own physical needs as well as the physical or emotional needs of others. He can be impractical, someone with his head in the clouds. He can be unpredictable but never boring. Since money is of not any particular importance, he may or may not have very much, although there’s usually enough to get by. As a potential partner it’s important to know he views financial security or any other security as illusory. This belief, which can appear as stinginess, may make him insecure about resources. Or, he may seem reluctant to make a concrete commitment, since in his philosophical view, change is the only thing he knows can be counted on.

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1 May 2018 or 16 Iyyar 5778
א1 Aleph, Ox, 1st Mother, Air Dancing/Creatrex

ESSENCE: Aleph’s image as ox horns resemble the pelvic horns which represent The Great Mother, The One, which contains The Nothing and The All. We’re called to trust Creative Potential and Wisdom, Inner Truth. Love–the essence of all creation.  Rider-Waite Tarot : Fool

Aleph is number 1, and the symbol of the ox, which in turn, is a symbol of Goddess:

Aleph is the number one and one thousand, the unity containing both the void and the multiplicity. It is the letter which, although silent contains within it, all of the other letters in their potential. Aleph is the first, last, and only One. It is The One that in its silence contains the nothing, within The All. Aleph is the I Am, the primordial chaos, the moment of conception. It is Yin/Yang, Mother/Father, beginning, end, and Infinite Cause. In the dance of black fire and white fire Aleph is the macrocosm. Aleph is the undifferentiated everything before creation, the purest abstraction, the soundless sound before speech, the moment before the impulse to speak. Aleph contains the qualities of being female and male, old and young, wise and innocent.

Within It-Self, cradled in Aleph’s pelvic horns, dreams the Being/Becoming, the cosmic wisdom and infinite creative potential. This is a card of infinite potential expansiveness. Here is energy for chaos or creation. Before the choice of conception, before the cell is fertilized, or divides, before it differentiates itself, before becoming, nothing or anything is possible.

The dancing chaos, unformed sound and primary energy of the Aleph card resembles the archetype of the Fool found in decks influenced by Rider-Waite Tarot.

Aleph can go anywhere, become anything. Because all choices are open in the moment before creation, it is essential to consider if we draw the Aleph in a reading, what it is that you want to create. We do not walk on solid ground. We risk all. Knowing our selves to be created in the image of the divine union of opposites, in the moment before beginning, all is in perfect equilibrium. Trust is essential, for the dance is change, changing, creating, destroying, and recreating. Trust that which comes from our innermost being, the inner truth. Love; is the essence of all creation.

REVERSED: If reversed, the Aleph card warns against trying to solidify or stop that which cannot be contained or measured. It reminds us to remain open and fluid.

With the Aleph reversed, we must remember that sometimes we it’s best to stop trying to make sense. When we confine our sense of what is Real, or The Truth, to a narrow concept, we only hinder our ability to unconditionally and spontaneously respond to the flow of life.

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30 April 2018 or 15 Iyyar 5778
QUEEN OF CUPS

ESSENCE: One whose life is permeated with spiritual and emotional connectedness. She is empathic, compassionate, flexible, nurturing and devoted in her intimate relationships. Expressive of the Holy Feminine, she is egalitarian, affectionate, sensual and sexual.

The Queen of Cups is a self-directed, non-authoritarian, religious or spiritual woman. Being one whose life is permeated with an awareness of her relationship to the people and the life energy around her. She imbues all with her sense of spiritual connection to the Whole. She is the archetypal female and as such may be a mother, priestess or possibly an artist, poet or musician. Wherever her creative energy is engaged she expresses and reflects her emotional connectedness. At her best, she is intuitively capable of giving each what they need; food, affection, laughter, spiritual comfort, or compassion. Open-hearted and generous, she can be imaginative and romantic, and also, whether or not she has children, a devoted mother. A lover of life, she is responsive to the needs of those around her.

Because of her sensual connection to the natural world, the Queen is sensitive to the constantly changing flow of her own energy cycles, physical needs, and her connection to the Mother of All. With the merging and blending properties of water she is acutely sensitive and aware of the relationships between things, even those which appear to be are unrelated.

The emblems of this archetype are the moon, the gentle dove and the transformative serpent. She wears the serpent on her head like the priestesses of the Great Mother. A cup surrounded by the triple moon appears behind and above her, representing the many trinity aspects of creation: blood, milk, and water, life, death, and rebirth, also fire, water, and air, youth, maturity, and age, that are all the Goddess’s domain.

Unlike the creativity of the Queen of Wands, the Queen of Cup’s creativity is the realm of emotion, love and relationship. She is a sexual and sensual person.

REVERSED:  Like the water element to which the Queen is connected, she can be unpredictable and moody. She can change, sometimes in a flash, from equanimity to wrath; or from a flashing storm of temper to joyous laughter or the calm of a placid lake.

When reversed, her archetype may represent an overly temperamental woman given to self-dramatization or irrationality. She can be a raw nerve. Relationships can become problematic and difficult to maintain due to a tendency to manifest the more destructive emotions.

The important thing to remember, in this reversal, is whatever feeling she’s manifesting is subject to change in a relatively short time. Although her highest energy is love, it may be immature or narcissistic. In which case there is a need to learn and develop emotional restraint and compassion for herself and others.

The Queen of Cups reversed may also simply indicate that the person manifesting the qualities of the archetype (of the upright or reversed card position) is male rather than female.

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29 April 2018 or 14 Iyyar 5778
7 NETZACH OF SWORDS

ESSENCE:  Our constant search for answers has led us to the realization of the subjective nature of reality. We’re filled with doubts and confusion. We question all authority. Seeing too many possibilities and not wanting to narrow our options makes decisions difficult.

The Netzach (seven) of Swords represents the experience of the outsider or doubter. As a questioner, we have no belief in authority, even sometimes of our own. Here is a situation or problem we cannot think our way out. When we try to think things through, we find ourselves entangled in options, opinions and also fruitless mental games and negotiations. At this time many signals seem mixed or otherwise unclear. Misunderstandings abound when we’re not sure of what information means or whom to trust. Each time we think we have found the solution, a new possibility negates it. We doubt ourselves, and others. Fearful of making a wrong decision we risk becoming hopelessly impotent. Through doing this we can miss the time for action altogether.

In the Netzach of Swords hesitation or confusion can be disastrous. This is not a time for halfway measures. We need to commit to a path of action and trust in the wisdom of the unconscious. It is essential if our endeavors are to be successful. Finally, if we remain frozen in indecision our choices may be taken over by another. This will not be to our advantage.

If we find ourselves circling yet never reaching the heart of a matter, we need to give thinking and analyzing a rest. Instead we should trust in our instinctive and spontaneous wisdom. When the house is on fire, there’s no time to consider how to rescue the grand piano we just grab the children and leave before the roof caves in. Sometimes it’s appropriate for action to precede thought. This is the time!

REVERSED:  When reversed, the Netzach of Swords indicates a situation when we should look before we leap and not let fear or a restless need for action make us unwilling to wait in the limbo of uncertainty. We must not now leap into action without sufficient thought or provocation. Our hatred of uncertainty and the state of suspense may tempt us to push matters to a conclusion, any conclusion, even if it results in destruction, and the manifestation of our fears.

For example, the reversal may indicate we’re willing to accept a partnership, job proposal, offer of marriage, or legal settlement because we are fearful of not getting another one. Or we may agree to a medical procedure without waiting to get a second or even third opinion. If we do so we may find ourselves in an unfortunate situation that we could have avoided had we shown greater patience.

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28 April 2018 or 13 Iyyar 5778
4 HESED OF SWORDS

ESSENCE: Thinking is expanded until everything and anything can be rationalized. We have too much faith in our detached mental ability to solve all problems. Egotism of
self-righteousness and self-deception is predominant.

The Hesed (four) of Swords represents a time of extreme expanded mental energies. Our thinking is imbalanced. Everything can be rationalized. Ends are considered the justification for any means chosen. We may believe that power and the use of force is the only way for obtaining a desired outcome. We are being warned that our weapons are disproportionate to the task, an atom bomb dropped on an anthill or choosing a drug which is more dangerous than the disease it’s meant to treat, a war, where people no longer know why they are fighting, yet still cannot stop. The Hesed of Swords may be an outgrowth of our frustration as a parent, spouse or friend. Having been tested to the limit, we find ourselves rationalizing abusive or bad behavior where we may say or do something, which we might regret.

Our actions in thrall to our imbalanced thinking may have a manic quality. It becomes important to slow down and think things through and reexamine our assumptions. We now must allow more time to evaluate our performance and look again at our motives.

With the Hesed of Swords we might ask, “What do I need in order to gain a better perspective of the situation? Isn’t it time to take a breather?”

We need to stop for a moment take a breath and see the absurdity of our position. It’s time to let the light of humor in through our clouded thinking.

REVERSED:   In The Hesed reversed we’re being forcefully asked by some circumstance to pay attention to other aspects of life. Stop focusing on the solitary pursuit of some ambition or goal and focus within. When we look and listen to that inner guide, it can give us the answer and lead us to find a more effective direction toward which to focus our mental energy.

This reversal can be a warning we are in danger of physical disease. Mental and physical states are interconnected. It can especially refer to diseases such as fevers, infections, or any other malady, which come on suddenly and spreads rapidly throughout the body. Time to take preventive measures. Be aware the body is not just a servant of our great brain. Mental stress such as worry and anxiety may be better controlled, by focusing on the present moment rather than a not-yet existent future.

This reversal reminds us, the body and immune system needs our attention, cleansing, nourishment, care, respect and love to thrive. Find ways to release or lower stress. And, even if we’re having fun, conserve our energy. Take it easy!

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27 April 2016 12 Iyyar 5778
3 BINAH OF WHEELS

ESSENCE: We have begun our mission. Although our way is clear and things seem to flow easily, there is much work to do. We need to plan and use our energy wisely. We realize we can’t do it all alone, we find it’s time to prioritize goals and enlist able helpers.

The Binah (three) of Wheels represents a time when wisdom and understanding are joined to the initiatory impulse. We now possess the right vehicle for obtaining the materialization of our dreams. We have the inspiration, grace, passion, and skill to create our heart’s desire.

The work has begun. We have the map and know how to use it. Our way is clear. Our plans for the house, job, marriage, or some other goal, lies open on the desk and we’re ready to create the foundation. It seems all our plans will come together almost effortlessly. While we enjoy this propitious beginning, we still must plan accordingly, prioritizing our time and energy in preparation for the labor ahead. The Binah is a time to re-examine our goals and review our plans so we can gather the materials or helpers that we’ll need as our work progresses. When we accurately assess our strengths and weaknesses we know what skills require further development, what weakness needs strengthening. That way we can gather the help and helpers we may need in advance.

The Binah is a time to re-examine our goals, re-organize our plans and gather the materials or helpers that we’ll need as our work progresses. We also re-examine our plans, so we can make whatever changes are necessary before it’s too late, or too costly to turn back easily.

REVERSED:  When The Binah is reversed it represents a warning against growing too comfortable or careless. It reminds us that now is the time we need to pay attention to even the smallest details of our process if we want the outcome to be successful.

Also, this reversal reminds us to plan for any unexpected or unanticipated problems that might arise. Since there can be unexpected changes in plans or in our situation it is important even at this early stage to plan for all eventualities.

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